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Blue... Blue. Like the red of blood, Like the might of flood, Like the scream of life in the bursting bud... Blue. Roaming earth’s entrails Liquid fire sails And in bursts of hell blinding sunshine hails... Blue. Like a typhoon’s eye, Like an angel’s sigh, Like a virgin’s pain in that love’s first cry... Blue. Like the sea reflecting the skies. Blue. Like the skies reflecting your eyes.

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Creation... You lay on your back. You have not been created yet. He looked at the sky, He needed a colour for them, He needed colours for the sea, the sun, the clouds. The colours have not been invented yet. He took his brush, Dipped it in your eyes, And softly started painting skies in long blue strokes, And skilfully coating grief with dark, deep, rumbling blue tones, And endless horizon with vibrating bluish fading haze, Dipped it again, And mixed the oozing paint in the sea waves, Dipped it in your tear, And the waves crest started rolling in a roaring procession of foaming thunder, Mixed the blue of the eyes, And the red of the lips, And the pink of the breasts, And painted the dawn, and the sunset, and the northern lights, and the love, Picked the spark off the eye’s tear, And the flash off the lip’s moisture, And the glint off the breast’s sweat, And in one magical sweep sprayed it over the no colour night skies For the millions and millions of stars waiting to be born off his artist’s touch, Dipped it in your soft breath, And painted the breeze, And the wind, And the hurricane... Dipped it in my unborn dream, And painted you.

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Puppies... I was born two moons ago, How I know it? I don’t know. Maybe mommy, sweet and kind, Wished it straight into my mind, Like her mommy, yes, it’s true, And her mommy’s mommy too...         ...wish I knew. I was weak, and wet, and blind, Mommy licked my front, my hind, Then, surprise, before I could Squeal, as any puppy should, Whoosh, my brother lands on me, Then my sisters, one, two, three...         ... oh gee. Crawling round my mommy’s tit, All of us, with puppy grit, Squealing, squashing tail and head, Mommy licking, mighty glad, Biting, toothless, brother’s paw, “This my tit, this is the law”... With my sisters crawling by, Buried me, oh my, oh my, Squirming, moaning, sniffing loud, Mommy looking, fierce and proud, And with muzzle soft and deft, Pushing each, to right, to left, And in moments, all asleep, Each a nipple, sucking deep, No more squabble, no more squeal, Gone the whining, gone the thrill, Mommy’s tired, closed her eyes, Mommy’s happy, mommy cries?...         ...mommy sighs. Sucking mommy’s tasty milk, Cuddled ‘gainst her belly’s silk, Growing stronger by the day, Growing bolder all the way, Taking long exhausting trips – Mommy’s tail to her ears tips, Finding new exciting smells, Hearing voices, hearing bells, And one day – oh, mommy, help! Who’s that ugly beady whelp? Mommy barks and jumps with joy, Oh, my pup, you see..., oh boy, Eyes you opened, goshly grace, This is just your brother’s face, Let me lick your pretty eyes, Gosh, they’re brown, oh mighty nice, Now you’re almost dog complete, All you need is just a bit...         ...of teeth. One full moon, and then one more, Not a single moment’s bore, Found some giants, scared me shit, Mommy laughs – don’t be a twit, These, the humans call them kid, Some are nasty, gosh forbid, Ours are the softy kind, Just sit down on your behind, Smile at them, just wag your tail, Show them who’s this cutie male, Roll around, your belly show, And they’ll scratch it fore you know, And they’ll play with you and fight, And their finger you may bite, There’s one secret you should know – When they smile, their teeth will show, God of humans, so the tale, Punished female, kid, and male...         ...with no tail. Few more suns, then one day morn, Mommy says – my dear first born, And you others, pups of my... Time has come to say good bye, Giant humans make the rule, Soon they start what they call school, And your mommy’s very sad, Yet your mommy’s mighty glad, ‘Cause the human kids with you Will find giant humans who Will provide you food and care, Happy homes, and love to share, Come to mommy, rub my nose, Take a proud and fearsome pose, Your adventure starts today, Listen what I have to say – Love thy human, by his side Always stay, but never hide...         ... your dog’s pride. Bye-bye mommy, one last bite, One last lick, you’re out of sight, Brother whimpers, sisters hide, I remember! and with pride On the basket’s rim I lean, Paws and muzzle fierce and mean, But I’d like so much, I too, To be squealing after you... You I promise, mommy dear, Head up high, no shade of fear, Your advice burnt deep inside Let it be my faithful guide, Bye-bye mommy, what’s this yawn Stretching muzzle dusk to dawn, Oh, I’m sleepy, kind of fear... Miss your warmth... on no, no tear, Promised you and I’ll fulfil... Wonder whose is this thin, shrill...         ...squeal? Giant human female kid Opens up the basket’s lid, She and friends then sit around, “Anybody? Puppy hound?” I, my brother, sisters too, Wonder what’s this boo-hoo-hoo, Rushing giants, screaming kids, Giant mother baby feeds, Snapping jaws... another clan? Dog to dog like man to man? Suddenly I start to crawl, Suddenly I want to bawl, Backing into brother, sis, Mommy, mommy, you I miss, Mouth I open... wait... what’s that? Is it human, is it cat? Screaming, shrieking with delight Do I dream? Is it a sight?...         ...not quite. Tearing passage, no excuse, In her wake twelve trodden shoes, Landing like no normal dame (Where in hell I know this name?) In my basket, crushing fur, Kissing noses, all’s a blur, Brother, sisters, kids and I Is she real?... looks like... my... Storm erupts in basketland, Barking puppies bite her hand, Smiling tails with sheer delight, Smiling teeth (that human plight...), And this crazy human she Picks me up, I’m glad, I pee In her lap. She jumps with joy, Keeps on mumbling “boy, oh, boy...” Other humans passing by, Some will laugh, some asking why...         ... some just sigh. Slowly, slowly, noise and storm Fade away, I’m snug and warm, Hearing thumps in woman’s chest, Feels like mommy, close to breast, And I yawn, and then I itch, And I love this human bitch...         ...she a witch? One thing’s sure, I know, you see - She would like a tail like me. Why? you ask, so she could smile. And I knew it all the while, ‘Cause, and here I must confess, Had a peek under her dress...         ...can you guess?

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One Simple Tune... One simple tune,         So strange of sound         Haunting and sweet, Out of no where,         Out of no place,         Out of no beat, I closed my eyes,         Wandering thoughts,         Over the sea, Hunting for you,         Lonely and sad,         Waiting for me. One simple tune,         Drunken and soft         Alien rhyme, Out of no heart,         Out of no soul,         Out of no time, Sin silken thoughts,         Flooding your mind,         In endless stream, Fingers entwined,         Pain touching pain,         Dream touching dream.

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Autumn Wind... You asked. My Lord, how come your spring has passed away unseen, My nose against the window pane, from girl to maiden teen, Sweet tales I heard of laughter, joy, I learned of sun and song, Of droves of flowers making love to butterflies day long... While shivering with cold and fright, my hurt unjust and deep, Under the willow, night and night, crying myself to sleep. You asked. My Lord, your summer sun, how come it chilled my heart, Where was the knight in shining mail to rip my soul apart, Looking for burning summer skies and blinding magic light Through hollow sounds of gasp and breathe that rocked my bed each night, In day to day, in day to night, in night to day again, Was it the summer? was it love? and if it was then when? * You prayed. My Lord, this autumn wind, this sudden ripping gust, Filling my soul with sudden life, filling my heart with trust, Filling my love with passion’s glow, with endless gentle pain, Filling my chest with childish joy and woman’s lust insane, My Lord, I pray, please let me wed my autumn lullaby, And when the winter roll shall in, together let us die.

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The Shape... Naked body, white and soft, In my arms you lie asleep, Round my neck your feeble grip, Pouting slightly as you did... ...so oft. Naked beach, and naked sea, In my mind a crazy view, On the beach a thousand you, Side by side, the art of love... ... I see. Picked you up, you didn’t stir, Though your body, warm and snug, Graced me with a mindless hug, Your thoughts in dreamland’s endless maze... ...a blur. Kissed the shoulder, Asked for lips, Told my fingers’ Hunting tips, You to map, Your peaks, your deeps, Haunting silken Tender strips, Aching, charming, Killing trips. Let you down on gentle sand, Dark and wet and fine of grain, Looked at you – a pallid stain, Pallid body, pallid face... ...pallid hand. And my fingers trace the form, Breaks the sand... and soft the sigh, Down the neck and up the thigh, God almighty... wakes my love... ...the storm... Laughing wildly, screaming rape, Rolls and rides across my chest, Cups my hand upon her breast... ...Sea and wave with envy sweep... ...the shape.

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Together... Slide your finger through my ring, Burn your winter through my spring, Rend your chest and rive your heart and impale it on my sting. Catch my dreams in spider nets, Scorch my breath with hot regrets, Whisper softly in my ear and let me die a thousand deaths. Touch your finger to my brow, Sink your teeth to my blood flow, By my side your sunset ride... never go.

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You Said... Be the wind that pulls my locks Like a sea of ribbon tails, Spraying mists of cool desire Long the wake of racing sails, Be the wand of wizard magic Dreamlove fairy’s very own, Weave my body in the carpet Flying you to lands unknown, Be the ram that rapes my tower, Breaks my wall and cracks my gate, Lay me waste and seed me flowers Crushed by you to welcomed fate, Be the sword that swiftly slashes, Carve my chest, my heart to save In your cage of golden silver, Lock the gate, forever slave... * Be the wind, the wand, the timeless Change of is to should have been, Be the ram, the sword, forever Be my promise, be my dream...

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Far Away... Far away from flight of eye, Way beyond the stretch of sky, Ever out the reach of men, Gone by where, and why, and when, Past the glint of dreams debris, Out of was, and is, and be,         Hides a star,         And none can see... Looking low by mountain’s shade, Cross the dreaming forest glade, Dripping honey from her breast, Braiding kisses round her nest, Moulding sighs to lullaby, Smiles a princess, sad of eye,         In her lap,         Asleep am I... Lucid fingers trace my cheek, Left of chest an answer seek, “Tell me stranger, soft of word, Queer of ways and fast of sword, To my world you brought your sun, Seasons many, torture one,         Will you part         And leave me none?...” Melting icebergs glide from eyes, Crush my heart in velvet vise, “Clue me stranger, will my nest Crumble down at your behest, Burn the silk on which we wed, From my breast on which you fed         Blood will weep,         And leave me dead?... From the depths of soul unbending, In the fields of love unending, Far from world and far from never I have sown the seeds of ever, I have fed it tear and sorrow, Angry past and sweet tomorrow,         If I could         Your dream to borrow, In my star to weave its thread, Run it through my bloodied bed, Flood till over runs my cup, Paint forget in waking up, In the star that’s never been You the king and I the queen,         Queen of lace,         And king of tin...” Closed my eyes, I knew I’m there, Lost amid the when and where, Not awake and not asleep, Honey marbles slowly drip, Kisses flutter round and by, Tunes of passion drift and fly,         In her lap,         Awaken I... Seeing gates of crimson red Hiding pearls loose of thread, Frozen lakes of whirling blue Shying back of frozen dew, Zephyr caress tame of feel Melting flakes from core of steel,         By your side         I bend and kneel... “Did the lark to heights take wing, In your voice his ode to sing, Did the sky its scheme reveal From your eyes the blue to steal, Did the sun lay down to get Scorching fire from your breath,         Is it life,         Or sweetest death?... Did your blood my veins invade Rushing forth its mad crusade, Did your thunder’s roaring art Find a haven in my heart, Did your soul its endless quest End inside my craving chest,         You and I,         One self, one nest?...”       * * *   Rolls the legend... “...stars away, Far from night, and far from day, There’s a land where wishes dock, Dreams cut riverbeds in rock, Smiles are pouring from the sky, Lost forever when and why...”         It’s the land         Of you... and I...

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Where My Heart Lives... There is a place so unfamiliar to me, yet I’ve yearned for it all my life. It’s all so new to me, is it any wonder I didn’t recognize it when I saw it? Sometimes you want something so hard, and wonder is it worthy of the knife? But something inside keeps you searching, looking over your shoulder a bit. Whispering to me in shades of darkness and colors of fear that made me tremble. Reaching my arms to pull it closer and then knowingly pushed it away from my grasp. Confused by my own state of mind and insecurities, to him a life in disassemble. It was true but somehow it didn’t matter to him, and he quickened his pace and clasp. The same as quicksand I sank into the wonderful madness of his words and of his being. Fear always at my heels waiting for me to fall, me always expecting I would do just that. Then the most amazing feeling of soul entering soul with timid love, that my fear was fleeing. Or was it this Knight who cut it to pieces so that I might live again, to end a heart in combat. It was true I had no belief in the promise of true love, or even the healthy harvest of such. Neither one of us looking but both of us blindly feeling our way along to fill the empty void. He was bigger than life, with a gentleness I had never known and my wondering soul he did touch. For the first time I felt the sting, the stirring inside of my heart thought never to be enjoyed. The honesty of his love and the purity of his heart made it easy for me to return the passion. Or perhaps it was he who returned my passion, as a gentleman always lets a lady go first. And oh yes, a gentleman he truly is and so hard to find in this day and age of no such fashion. There are no words to explain or justify to God or anyone to the answer of why his love I thirst. The word Love is even too small a word to clarify my devoted affection for him, yet I have no other. At the top of the world I shall shout his name and cast aside that which I know in multitude harm. For I cannot now or ever let him go, for I will not exist without him, pain thoughts one after another. Happiness is abound in the pleasure he gives to me, no other man will there be, my destiny his writing arm.

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Short Encounter... Grey weeping clouds, Green sparkling grass, Black tinge of storm, Red shards of glass, Forgotten world, Deserted will, Sweet promise kept, Deep searing feel, The tangled hair, The heaving chest, The ruby cheek, The pallid breast, Half blue half closed Your pretty eyes, Half red half soft Your mouth’s sweet spice, A broken nail, A piece of lace, A missing shoe, A spilling case, Lips touching four, Hands holding two, Tears flowing ten, One “I love you...”...

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Born, Living, Loving... Yesterday and more ago, Half a century, or so, Time the plains give in to snow, Acting life’s most awesome show, Knowing no... Yesterday and some ago, Half through life, through bliss, through blow, Time the seasons slowly flow, Acting life’s most common show, Knowing no... Yesterday not long ago, Half a world away, or no, Time the sudden passions glow, Acting life’s most scorching show, Knowing so...

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Closed My Eyes... Closed my eyes. Trying to write you a poem, Using words never said before, Words you never heard before. But I failed. Closed my eyes. Trying to imagine, The breezy fragrance hiding in the wild recesses of your endlessly flowing fluttering hair, Blending silver sparks         with soft light hints,         shadows grey         with color glints... Inhaling the inebriating forest perfumes burning bloody trails into my lungs... Dizzy, My breathing rough, irregular...         But I failed. Closed my eyes. Trying to imagine, The stormy touch hiding in the capped fire wells of your softly reaching promising fingertips, Blending venom speed         with fairy dust,         heavens sting         with mortal lust... Shivering at the howling forest squalls cutting bloody traces along my skin... Mindless, My body aching, asking...         But I failed. Closed my eyes. Trying to imagine, The killing hurricane hiding in the erupting volcano of your gently inviting smiling lips, Blending honey dew         with cleaving pain,         freezing hell         with scathing rain... Writhing at the blazing forest fires carving smoldering paths across my soul... Lost, My self searching, begging...         But I failed. Closed my eyes. Trying to write you a poem, Using same words I said before, Same words you heard before. And you were there...

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WWW... Woman. I found a woman. There’s no second to your kind, Scavenging my ravished mind, Sending feelers long and frail Through its steely shielding veil, Seeping into crack and hole, Peeling layers one and all, Squeezing through at honey crawl, Gripping secrets, dreams, and soul, Thirsty tracing blood and vein To this calling throbbing pain, Weaving fingers wizard’s art Holding tight to never part –         - my heart. Whore. I found a whore. There’s no second to your thrill, Gashing ribbons through my will, Sliding shivers long my spine, Spiky nails in shoulders mine, Slicing teeth drive bloody wedge Like a razor’s dreaded edge, Long my chin the gushing line Stains the breasts that crush in mine, Thighs are merging, hips collide, Hands to gates of heaven slide, Fingers clasp in frenzied fight, Screaming silent, holding tight –         - my might. Wife. I found a wife. There’s no second to your love, Way beyond, or way above, Soft the song at morn you sing, Kind the kiss each eve you bring, By my side when children play, Hand in hand when puppies stray, Laughing day and smiling night, Sparkling eyes at candle’s light, Telling whispers in my ear, Reading poems from my tear, Wearing proudly, song to wing, Day to moon, and sun to spring –         - my ring.

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You And I... you wrote a poem, i read the words, you played a laughter, i heard the chords, you said forever and one more day, i feared the never that’s paving my way. you counted the seasons, we sadly have lost, the falls and the winters we’re hoping to host, i pained for the summers, the tunes of the spring, and prayed for the seasons tomorrows will bring. you rhymed of a bridge you built lover’s art, you laid out the bricks, you reached for my heart... i grabbed dreamland’s hammer, obeyed your behest, your bridge and your heartbeat i nailed to my chest.

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